Softly Monstrous

  I used to insist that I wasn't interested in going on testosterone. Vocal changes were 'a dealbreaker', I 'didn't really want to', it was something I only gave consideration for 'all the wrong reasons'. Anyway, I'm hopefully starting T in a month or two! I'm very, very excited. - For a long time, I very much treated it like I needed to be This Trans To Ride The T-Train. Or, at times, like maybe if I rode the T-Train, it would deliver me to the destination of finally being This Trans. I knew the latter was a terrible reason to pursue physical transition, and it took me a very long time to realise that someone like me (read: only nominally masc, mostly likes their body, not even particularly dysphoric) was not doing gender crimes by claiming to have some kind of gender going on?  Like, when your gender situation is 'a bone deep longing to be allowed to play in the entire pool, unconstrained, a playful little shapeshifter', it's easy f...

  The Alchemist Echidna Echinus I've been curious about mini-penetrables for some time - as someone regularly lamenting the inability to sexually penetrate with their own anatomy, there's an obvious appeal to the idea of something I put myself  into , rather than something I put  onto  myself. However, a lot of petite penetrables are designed with transmasculine people on T in mind. They're often open-backed sleeves, designed to accommodate t-dick as a scaled-down stroker. I'm not on T (yet!!!) and if I'm honest, even by non-testosterone-ised standards, humbly endowed. So a lot of those toys aren't for me - they would, quite simply, be too big! What I was looking for was something closed-backed, capable of suction, and able to get a close fit. A cis female user in a toy discord I follow spoke with great enthusiasm of this cute sea-urchin-shaped toy as a nipple sucker and mini penetrable, though...  My interest was piqued immediately. I mean, look at it. It'...